Sport 40: 2012
Michael Roes
Michael Roes
In the Land of Deaf-Mutes
In the beginning using language was
child’s play, an art of slips and promises
Not sentences alone could be true or false
From grammars we built small ships
and let them sail across the sky-sea
until the discord soaked through. They
didn’t help us sort the poisonous words
from the wholesome ones, nor to
ignite a poem without phosphorous and stone
Your description of utopia was a mistake
For you were only teaching us because the future
Was more frightening to you than the past
I would have choked on my own childhood
if I had trusted your lessons
Without rage they’re infertile lessons
I left the books behind, the asylum
of your truths. My toes are more likely to find
my mouth than your latex metaphors
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The seam of dirt under my toenails
feeds my word fever more than the one under the
clean foreskin of fathers. My retching
is not just a gesture, not just a dance
It’s also a stigma in the land of my choice
I won’t get older, born old
Among the herds of deaf-mutes
I make up for my childhood
Layla and Majnun
My folly bakes stones. Don’t laugh at it
When I addressed you in words as cautious as the
new moon, you invited me to your fire
Every greeting already contains a farewell
and every touch a deathly blow
Why don’t you trust the waves that brought
us to one another and without reproach
Until our strength leaves us, they are the
gentlest companions we’ve ever had
Your hands are calloused from baking
and don’t distinguish the crust from the skin
Under this olive tree, at the top of which I
should hang myself, I sing praise to the trees
Nobody expels, nobody stones us
My skin is no banner, my soul
no broken wing. Silence is not
hell, innocence no paradise
All brotherly love is mixed unwittingly
with sexual desire
Is this why you fear desire, for doubtless
it also contains brotherly love
I would gladly tell you the truth
if I knew what truth was
You are not the abandoned landscape
and I am not the fleshless shadow
of myself. My nakedness is neither
heroic nor a reason to blush
Into this bed of fire that you have ignited
only an angel or a fool will throw himself
When you go, don’t expect a song of lament
Wait! Don’t go wordless! Just look—
you’re going the other way
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They take my rings from me,
but I’m left with my fingers
After prayers the sky is rolled up
and stored in big baskets
The summer night shatters
in its frame
I, the good son, am the last string
between bridge and peg
My father is the man who asphalted Israel
my mother a smiling gold tooth
My hair in the grate of her hard
tattooed hands
My tree name is not
the name my enemies give me
My bush name is not
the tautological father-word
Only the voice of the forgotten commandment
still troubles me